Dear GOD!

So for the first time in 4 years i have entered the dating world...and what a scary scary world this is. I never thought i would ever have to date again. And if i can get pissed at Josh for anything its not breaking up with me or trying to figure things out...its throwing me to the horrible, rude, creepy lions! Its amazing the things people will do and say to you. The audacity of some, and the bluntness, and jerkyness. I really had a guy who i was talking to for 10 minutes ask me to send him pictures of my boobs. Really?! Seriously? What kind of people are out there! This should be a long, scary, bumpy ride my friends. And to be honest..im not looking forward to it. So heres to a live of singless and many cats im afraid!

Girls day!

So I'm off to Erie today...(insert sigh here) I'm so looking forward to spending a fun day hanging out and relaxing with my girlies! Spending time not talking or worrying about josh, or school, or work. Just fun and shopping and eating ...yay!! I miss my Erie friends and Erie every single day. I miss the things to do in Erie, running to target, having a half way decent mall, and places to eat. Although i still have a lake here..there is nothing better than going to get a hot dog at Sarah's then going to the beach and watching the sunset. I miss it all so so so much. So today i will enjoy seeing people i miss, and taking in what i can.

So these past few months have been crazy. Emotionally. I'm really having a difficult but fun time trying to be independent. Its interesting when you are faced with being alone and by yourself with out someone else to really see the person that you are. In some ways its good and some bad. I am realizing my dependence i had for Josh making him part of who i was. Now with him and I working on our friendship i am noticing more and more that i need to be me...and only me. Its a hard one. So i have really been trying to get out there, spend time with friends and look forward to my life ahead. I'm going out with Annie tonight for sushi..fun and this weekend i get to hang out with my Erie peeps which i am really looking forward to. So say a prayer taht i still get through this roller coaster that is my life...